It's bigger than we thought
It's taller than it oughta be
This pile of rubble and ruins
The neighbors must talk
It's the worst yard on the block
Just branches and boards
Where walls stood
Did it seem to you
Like the storm just knew
We weren't quite finished with the roof
When it started?
So we build
We build
We clear away what was
And make room for what will be
If you'll hold the nails, I'll take the hammer
I'll hold it still, if you'll climb the ladder
If you will, then I will build
On any given day
We could simply walk away
And let someone else hold the pieces
The lie that we tell
Says that it's better somewhere else
As if love flies south when it freezes
What I'm tryin' to say
In some clumsy way is that
It's you and only you for always
That's why we build
We build
We clear away what was
And make room for what will be
If you'll hold the nails, I'll take the hammer
I'll hold it still if you'll climb the ladder
If you will, then I will build
What I'm tryin' to say
In some clumsy way is that
It's you and only you for always
Not just for now, not just today
But it's you and only you
For always
So if you hold the nails, I'll take the hammer
I'll hold it still if you'll climb the ladder
And if you will, then I will build
Nichole Nordeman
Sunday, June 5, 2016
The House That Built Me
i know they say you can't go home again.
i just had to come back one last time.
ma'am I know you don't know me from Adam.
but these handprints on the front steps are mine.
and up those stairs, in that little back bedroom
is where I did my homework and I learned to play guitar.
and I bet you didn't know under that live oak
my favorite dog is buried in the yard.
i thought if I could touch this place or feel it
this brokenness inside me might start healing.
out here its like I'm someone else,
i thought that maybe I could find myself
if I could just come in I swear I'll leave.
won't take nothing but a memory
from the house that built me.
mama cut out pictures of houses for years.
from 'Better Homes and Garden' magazines.
plans were drawn, concrete poured,
and nail by nail and board by board
daddy gave life to mama's dream.
i thought if I could touch this place or feel it
this brokenness inside me might start healing.
out here its like I'm someone else,
i thought that maybe I could find myself.
if I could just come in I swear I'll leave.
won't take nothing but a memory
from the house that built me.
you leave home, you move on and you do the best you can.
i got lost in this whole world and forgot who I am.
i thought if I could touch this place or feel it
this brokenness inside me might start healing.
out here its like I'm someone else,
i thought that maybe I could find myself.
if I could walk around I swear I'll leave.
won't take nothing but a memory
from the house that built me.
Miranda Lambert
i just had to come back one last time.
ma'am I know you don't know me from Adam.
but these handprints on the front steps are mine.
and up those stairs, in that little back bedroom
is where I did my homework and I learned to play guitar.
and I bet you didn't know under that live oak
my favorite dog is buried in the yard.
i thought if I could touch this place or feel it
this brokenness inside me might start healing.
out here its like I'm someone else,
i thought that maybe I could find myself
if I could just come in I swear I'll leave.
won't take nothing but a memory
from the house that built me.
mama cut out pictures of houses for years.
from 'Better Homes and Garden' magazines.
plans were drawn, concrete poured,
and nail by nail and board by board
daddy gave life to mama's dream.
i thought if I could touch this place or feel it
this brokenness inside me might start healing.
out here its like I'm someone else,
i thought that maybe I could find myself.
if I could just come in I swear I'll leave.
won't take nothing but a memory
from the house that built me.
you leave home, you move on and you do the best you can.
i got lost in this whole world and forgot who I am.
i thought if I could touch this place or feel it
this brokenness inside me might start healing.
out here its like I'm someone else,
i thought that maybe I could find myself.
if I could walk around I swear I'll leave.
won't take nothing but a memory
from the house that built me.
Miranda Lambert
This House
it took me by surprise
this old house and these old feelings
walked round and looked inside
familiar walls and halls and ceilings
this old house and these old feelings
walked round and looked inside
familiar walls and halls and ceilings
where I'd dream and plan
every moment of sunshine
this was my whole world
it was all I knew.
every moment of sunshine
this was my whole world
it was all I knew.
like the hull of a seed
this old house cracked wide open
as I grew.
this old house cracked wide open
as I grew.
hadn't given it much thought
hadn't been back here for a while
everything looks so small
seen through the memories of a child
hadn't been back here for a while
everything looks so small
seen through the memories of a child
who would dream and stare
from that second story window
from that second story window
that was my whole world
it was all I knew.
it was all I knew.
like the hull the of a seed
this old house cracked wide open
and I flew
this old house cracked wide open
and I flew
sad, fruitful, broken, true.
sad, fruitful, broken, true.
sad, fruitful, broken, true.
memories for miles and miles
summers falls winters and springs
You take it in
See, He's withheld no good thing
summers falls winters and springs
You take it in
See, He's withheld no good thing
Sara Groves
Old Things Have Passed Away Your Love Has Stayed the Same
OLD things have passed away
YOUR LOVE has stayed the SAME
Your CONSTANT GRACE REMAINS the CORNERSTONE
Things that we thought were dead
Are BREATHING IN LIFE AGAIN
You cause your Son to shine on darkest nights
For all that you’ve done we will pour out our love
This will be our anthem song
Jesus we love you
Oh how we love you
You are the one our hearts adore
Our hearts adore
All that was lost has FOUND its PLACE in YOU
You lift our weary head
You make us strong instead
You took these RAGS and made us BEAUTIFUL
Our affection, our devotion
poured out on the feet of Jesus
Our affection, our devotion
poured out on the feet of Jesus
Our affection, our devotion
poured out on the feet of Jesus
Our affection, our devotion
poured out on the feet of Jesus
YOUR LOVE has stayed the SAME
Your CONSTANT GRACE REMAINS the CORNERSTONE
Things that we thought were dead
Are BREATHING IN LIFE AGAIN
You cause your Son to shine on darkest nights
For all that you’ve done we will pour out our love
This will be our anthem song
Jesus we love you
Oh how we love you
You are the one our hearts adore
Our hearts adore
All that was lost has FOUND its PLACE in YOU
You lift our weary head
You make us strong instead
You took these RAGS and made us BEAUTIFUL
Our affection, our devotion
poured out on the feet of Jesus
Our affection, our devotion
poured out on the feet of Jesus
Our affection, our devotion
poured out on the feet of Jesus
Our affection, our devotion
poured out on the feet of Jesus
My Hope is Built On Nothing Less/On Christ the Solid Rock I Stand
My hope is built on nothing less
Than Jesus' blood and righteousness
I dare not trust the sweetest frame
But wholly trust in Jesus' Name.
On Christ the solid Rock I stand
All other ground is sinking sand,
All other ground is sinking sand.
When darkness veils His lovely face,
I rest on His unchanging grace;
In every high and stormy gale
My anchor holds within the veil.
On Christ, the solid Rock, I stand;
All other ground is sinking sand.
His oath, His covenant, and blood
Support me in the whelming flood;
When every earthly prop gives way,
He then is all my Hope and Stay.
On Christ, the solid Rock, I stand;
All other ground is sinking sand.
When He shall come with trumpet sound,
Oh, may I then in Him be found,
Clothed in His righteousness alone,
Faultless to stand before the throne!
On Christ, the solid Rock, I stand;
All other ground is sinking sand.
Than Jesus' blood and righteousness
I dare not trust the sweetest frame
But wholly trust in Jesus' Name.
On Christ the solid Rock I stand
All other ground is sinking sand,
All other ground is sinking sand.
When darkness veils His lovely face,
I rest on His unchanging grace;
In every high and stormy gale
My anchor holds within the veil.
On Christ, the solid Rock, I stand;
All other ground is sinking sand.
His oath, His covenant, and blood
Support me in the whelming flood;
When every earthly prop gives way,
He then is all my Hope and Stay.
On Christ, the solid Rock, I stand;
All other ground is sinking sand.
When He shall come with trumpet sound,
Oh, may I then in Him be found,
Clothed in His righteousness alone,
Faultless to stand before the throne!
On Christ, the solid Rock, I stand;
All other ground is sinking sand.
Monday, September 26, 2011
Well, I got lost on my way to MOPS. :( My GPS is terrible at those back country roads. I never did find it, and it took me over an hour to get there, even though it is in the same "small" town I live in - had no idea that was still considered our county! MOPS only meets once a month, so our next meeting is the 13th. I'm not sure if I will go this semester or not...because we will only meet for 3 months (Oct., Nov., Dec.) and I still probably won't have a child during that time... I don't know though - I still need the support. So, we'll see.
Well, we have some exciting news that we received over the weekend! We were invited to our first adoption "party." We have mixed feelings about this...for one, we know it will be fun - food and games - but also nervous because we'll be arriving late because Chad gets off work that morning, and the event starts at 10! I'm nervous we won't make it in time to look at the profiles before the kids arrive... We also have mixed feelings because we know that it will be sad seeing all those kids, especially the older ones. They know why they are there, but they are there because they want a family. I was thinking that some of the older ones might be there but SAY they don't even want a family (because they have been going for so many years and now they are older and think there's no hope left, or that they're old enough now that they think they don't "need" or don't "want" a family - kind of as a coping method rather than real feelings, maybe? I don't know? I just can't imagine how I would feel...going to the parties for all those years). Anyway, we are going to the party, even though it's over an hour away, just to see what it's like and mainly just to play with the kids. I'm sure it will be fun also. We are going to make a weekend out of it and stay in a hotel overnight. So it will be good to have a mini-vacation/date with hubby. :) It is much needed, since I was gone for our anniversary! He was so sweet to offer. :)
The other news we received was our first "Staffing" list from the September caseworker meeting. It is a list of about 60 names. Actual children. I teared up and my heart was pounding when I read it! It's strange to think, "Maybe this list will have our child's name on it!" There were only two 3 year olds, and maybe one 4 year old. The others were must older...9, 12, 16... I wonder how many "lists" those older ones have been on. :(
I talked with our caseworker for the first time today. She sounds very nice and is helpful with my questions. I'm trying not to ask too much, but it's hard! I have these decisions to make about my Fall and Spring schedules and it's hard to not keep life on hold but at the same time not wanting to book up so that we will be available for whatever comes/whenever our child comes. I would hate to think that I missed out on a work opportunity that I could be doing for a year, but I would also hate to committ to something that I can't finish. I don't want to burn any bridges! One question I asked is how many families our caseworker has right now. She has 12 families that she is advocating for in the monthly staffing meetings. There are tons of other caseworkers that put their "clients'" names in as well, at the meetings. On October 11th is the October Staffing Meeting where they will go over all the kids and special needs and all the families that are wanting to adopt. On October 12th, 13th, and 14th, we get to come up to the DHS office and look at the profiles of the children they see a potential "match" for us for. Hope my wording makes sense? It's kind of confusing!
As far as the timeline, our previous worker had been somewhat positive about the wait time for a child 0-3 years old... The previous worker said yes, we do have babies but did also warn, of course, that the wait time is going to be longer. Our new/permanent worker was less optimistic...She said it's going to be awhile. At the same time, she said that we will have to re-do our paperwork once our "year" is up...so that is in like 4 months...so she was kind of talking as if we would find a match in the next 2 months... I just remember her saying something about 2 months...I don't know.
Well, we are in this almost a year now (February, I think?), so yes, a year seems like awhile from now, but it also goes by quickly! I am trying to look on the bright side!
So, that is the latest update! We are just giving it all to God, because it's totally out of our hands now. Like the song says, "It feels like chaos, but I believe You're up to something, bigger than me...Larger than life - something heavenly."
Megan
Well, we have some exciting news that we received over the weekend! We were invited to our first adoption "party." We have mixed feelings about this...for one, we know it will be fun - food and games - but also nervous because we'll be arriving late because Chad gets off work that morning, and the event starts at 10! I'm nervous we won't make it in time to look at the profiles before the kids arrive... We also have mixed feelings because we know that it will be sad seeing all those kids, especially the older ones. They know why they are there, but they are there because they want a family. I was thinking that some of the older ones might be there but SAY they don't even want a family (because they have been going for so many years and now they are older and think there's no hope left, or that they're old enough now that they think they don't "need" or don't "want" a family - kind of as a coping method rather than real feelings, maybe? I don't know? I just can't imagine how I would feel...going to the parties for all those years). Anyway, we are going to the party, even though it's over an hour away, just to see what it's like and mainly just to play with the kids. I'm sure it will be fun also. We are going to make a weekend out of it and stay in a hotel overnight. So it will be good to have a mini-vacation/date with hubby. :) It is much needed, since I was gone for our anniversary! He was so sweet to offer. :)
The other news we received was our first "Staffing" list from the September caseworker meeting. It is a list of about 60 names. Actual children. I teared up and my heart was pounding when I read it! It's strange to think, "Maybe this list will have our child's name on it!" There were only two 3 year olds, and maybe one 4 year old. The others were must older...9, 12, 16... I wonder how many "lists" those older ones have been on. :(
I talked with our caseworker for the first time today. She sounds very nice and is helpful with my questions. I'm trying not to ask too much, but it's hard! I have these decisions to make about my Fall and Spring schedules and it's hard to not keep life on hold but at the same time not wanting to book up so that we will be available for whatever comes/whenever our child comes. I would hate to think that I missed out on a work opportunity that I could be doing for a year, but I would also hate to committ to something that I can't finish. I don't want to burn any bridges! One question I asked is how many families our caseworker has right now. She has 12 families that she is advocating for in the monthly staffing meetings. There are tons of other caseworkers that put their "clients'" names in as well, at the meetings. On October 11th is the October Staffing Meeting where they will go over all the kids and special needs and all the families that are wanting to adopt. On October 12th, 13th, and 14th, we get to come up to the DHS office and look at the profiles of the children they see a potential "match" for us for. Hope my wording makes sense? It's kind of confusing!
As far as the timeline, our previous worker had been somewhat positive about the wait time for a child 0-3 years old... The previous worker said yes, we do have babies but did also warn, of course, that the wait time is going to be longer. Our new/permanent worker was less optimistic...She said it's going to be awhile. At the same time, she said that we will have to re-do our paperwork once our "year" is up...so that is in like 4 months...so she was kind of talking as if we would find a match in the next 2 months... I just remember her saying something about 2 months...I don't know.
Well, we are in this almost a year now (February, I think?), so yes, a year seems like awhile from now, but it also goes by quickly! I am trying to look on the bright side!
So, that is the latest update! We are just giving it all to God, because it's totally out of our hands now. Like the song says, "It feels like chaos, but I believe You're up to something, bigger than me...Larger than life - something heavenly."
Megan
Thursday, September 8, 2011
Newest News
On August 30th our home study was completely, finally, officially approved! I have said a couple times that our home study was complete; what I meant was that our paperwork on our end was complete. Now it is complete on their end too! I called a couple days after the 30th to ask a question unrelated to our study. She had said she was going to call me to let us know when it was approved (I had been calling her every Friday for 2-3 weeks.) Well, she didn't call! Oh well. I am glad I called. :) We have been assigned a caseworker now. :) I pray that she is nice and easy to talk with and get along with. :) We are not to call her for another week, but I do have her phone number if that week goes by without a call! We should be looking at profiles fairly soon! We hope! I think it will be a looong process of finding our "match," but we are prepared for that. That's why we want to get started soon! We might have visits before Christmas, but who knows...might be next year instead.
I am having to make some hard decisions about my work schedule and also my teaching schedule, so thanks for praying for me about that! I just want to do what the Lord has for me. I just need clarity on what He is asking me to do.
I have been sick this week but hoping to go to my first MOPS (Mothers of Preschoolers) group tonight! They said that mothers need a support group before they even have kiddos (which I agree!) so I am excited that they are so welcoming to me. :) If I get to go tonight, we'll be doing scrapbooking. I'll try to bring some of my lifebook to work on that, since I don't have any kids to scrapbook. LoL. Maybe I'll work on Oliver's page. :)
At home, we just finished bringing Chad's childhood toy box upstairs from the basement. It is now in the playroom. Our new t.v. room is the front room and it's very cozy! I can't wait to get a cute/fun rug for the playroom. The playroom is next to the kitchen since I spend most of my time in there, it seems! I am always cleaning that room, ahh! Seems like the house doesn't feel clean unless the kitchen is clean. And the kitchen always seems to be messy. I can't wait til everything is done so I can post pictures! For now, it's kinda boring-looking, but progress is being made, and that's all that matters. :) The nursery is completely cleared out now. We were able to fit that gigantic desk out the door. Now we have a new "office" - a hutch for the computer in the playroom, and I have re-done our coat closet into a storage closet for our office supplies and file cabinet. Lots of changes, but it's been fun! Now I'm on a roll and want to organize all my Christmas stuff! Right now it is packed/cluttered in that closet!
Well, more updates coming soon, I hope!
~ Meg
I am having to make some hard decisions about my work schedule and also my teaching schedule, so thanks for praying for me about that! I just want to do what the Lord has for me. I just need clarity on what He is asking me to do.
I have been sick this week but hoping to go to my first MOPS (Mothers of Preschoolers) group tonight! They said that mothers need a support group before they even have kiddos (which I agree!) so I am excited that they are so welcoming to me. :) If I get to go tonight, we'll be doing scrapbooking. I'll try to bring some of my lifebook to work on that, since I don't have any kids to scrapbook. LoL. Maybe I'll work on Oliver's page. :)
At home, we just finished bringing Chad's childhood toy box upstairs from the basement. It is now in the playroom. Our new t.v. room is the front room and it's very cozy! I can't wait to get a cute/fun rug for the playroom. The playroom is next to the kitchen since I spend most of my time in there, it seems! I am always cleaning that room, ahh! Seems like the house doesn't feel clean unless the kitchen is clean. And the kitchen always seems to be messy. I can't wait til everything is done so I can post pictures! For now, it's kinda boring-looking, but progress is being made, and that's all that matters. :) The nursery is completely cleared out now. We were able to fit that gigantic desk out the door. Now we have a new "office" - a hutch for the computer in the playroom, and I have re-done our coat closet into a storage closet for our office supplies and file cabinet. Lots of changes, but it's been fun! Now I'm on a roll and want to organize all my Christmas stuff! Right now it is packed/cluttered in that closet!
Well, more updates coming soon, I hope!
~ Meg
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